Day 332: I Want a Girl Like

I want a girl
Who has quit smoking
But the swings that life brings
Has brought her back to nicotine
I want a girl
Who's quit dancing for the men
Who's quit twerking for fame
But keeps working all the same
I want a girl
Who is Independent
Who's got her money in her hand
Who doesn't need, but wants, a man
I want a girl
Who doesn't care what you think
Who's got ink out to her finger tips
And what you think, don't mean shit
Only what I think

Day 331: Everything and Nothing

I gave you all I ever was
And all I'll ever be
I worked from sunrise to sunset
To give you security
I gave you all the breath I had
Just to hear you breathe
I gave you pleasure like no other
Until you'd scream and wheeze
I gave you all I had to give
And borrowed all the rest I gave
Which is why I'll never be the same
As the day you went away

Day 330: Hide Your Heart My Darling

The storm is coming soon
The clouds are growing dark
The gusts are howling through the plains
You had better hide your heart
You'd better hide your heart, my darling
You'd better hide your heart

Board up all the windows dear
And I will bolt the doors
We will sit here in the cellar
Riding out the storm
We'll ride out the storm, my darling
We'll ride out the storm

The night is never ending, dear
The day refuses to break
I feel you slowly letting go
But I don't have the strength
I don't have the strength, my darling
I don't have the strength

You know you have my heart, my dearling
And I know I have a piece you gave
But as to mending our broken trust
I just don't see a way
I just don't see a way, my darling
I just don't see a way

Day 329: Thoughts?

I fought and tossed with troubled men
I started all my life again
I caught up with the self I left behind
But now I'm left with empty hands
A shattered ego, empty plans
And questions that have answers I can't find.

Day 328: Emotional Therapy

I was crippled for a month
But you helped me to my feet
You held my weight as I put
Foot in front of foot carefully
And when I could stand upright
With only the support of your hand
You let go of me
To show me I could stand
You said your job was done
And packed up all you owned
And moved on to the next one in need
So I could walk on my own
The pain of holding my weight
Makes me sweat and shake
But otherwise I'd never walk again
And I have you to thank.


Thank you to everyone who has helped me this last month. You put me back on my feet. It's not easy learning again, but I am learning and it will be ok. Pain is part of the recovery and you all helped lessen it until I could handle it. Thank you so much. All of you.

Day 327: Love Again One Day

You can't have all of me
'Cause I don't have it all to give
But you can have all that's left
And do with it what you wish
'Cause I believe your words are true
So I will give my all to you
And your time and love will hold the pieces
Back in place like glue
Your eyes will see into my soul
And light my darkest thoughts
And your smile will melt the frozen heart
'Till the ice become raindrops
Your touch will make my pulse race
Nothing will matter in this bliss
Until then dreams of you will keep me
While I hope that you exist

Day 326: Autumn of life

I listen to the echoes of the raindrops
That capture all my stray thoughts
And reassure me it will all turn out OK

And the falling of the autumn leaves all seem
To bury memories and dreams
Of the pain you left me when you went away.