Day 371: Wrong way after wrong way

In a moment of clarity, I finally saw
The millions of decisions that got me this far
The millions of turns I took along the way
And I'm overwhelmed by the millions of mistakes  that I've made.

Day 370: next stop, rock bottom

I can't tell if my life is a cautionary tale
You tell your children to teach them self control
Or if I'm on the verge of a forgotten truth
Lost deeper down this rabbit hole

Day 369: to disappear is the best apology

I am a lonely mixture
Of self loathing and regret
I won't ask for your forgiveness
I know I don't deserve that
I'll slink away and disappear
Evaporate like the morning dew
I don't want to start again
That wouldn't be fair to you