Day 304: Tired

I want so badly to escape
To pretend that none of this occurred
To start again, or better yet
To be done with this world
My mind is weary, heavy laden
Exhausted from the race it runs
I try desperately to slow it down
With alcohol and smokey lungs

Day 303: The future is here

I saw them lower their fire arms
And take up fruits and flowers
I saw them leave their daily chores
And play around for hours
I saw them laugh and bathe in rivers
Not caring who would see
I saw as neighbors, family, friends
All turned into Eloi

I saw them horde the abandoned guns
And oil all the parts
I saw them toil underneath
The cover of the dark
I saw them offer protection
To the eloi behind the locks
I saw the leaders slip detection
As they became morlocks.

Day 302: A modern day fiefdom

These people with white picket fences
Guarding castles made of debt
Are not kings but merely surfs
Chasing dreams they cannot catch
But how else can you keep the poor
From rising up against the rich
Give them entertaining shows
To slowly kill their brain off with

Day 301: Pensive

In all the things I've been
Have I ever been myself?
Has every friend I've ever had
Been a way to hide from the world?
Has every lesson that I've learned
And all that I've attained
Been just a route to run away
From the person I became?
I've never been more lost
Than when I look into my past
I see the roads that I followed
But can't divine why I chose the path.
And if you can relate
To a mannequin without a face
Then you know exactly how I feel
Because I've never really known
Where to call a home
And don't know how to tell what is real

Day 300: Unfair

I just want someone to look at me
The way I look at you
To stare in amazement and forget to breathe
To suddenly forget what's happening
To have a memory of that stolen glance
That feels like it was seen in a dream
But you never see me like that
I'm someone you look through
To find what you can get from me
What I can give to you

Day 299: Reckoning

I was once the son of suns
King of kings, hum of nuns
Whispered in the hallowed convent halls

I was once killed twice born
The quiet in the mind's eye of the storm
I was the heir of apocolyptic prayers that warned of my retrun

Day 298:Leave you breathless

I added a beat to my words
Just to see what came out
And the concussive force of the combination
Nearly shook my house.
Never quite could figure out
The science of the beat
So I set myself to learn the ways
Of lips tongues and teeth
Of trying to find a way
To ignite a stage with speech
And deliver a lyrical cadence
That will sweep you off your feet.
Leave you breathless

297: Lost again

Took a hook to the jaw
Saw stars for an eternity
Woke up in a car
Uncertain of my itinerary
It looks like I had a plan
But now I'm totally lost
Parked with headlights off
In a lonely rest stop
The last thing I remember
Was you in your black dress
You came to me and took me in
But the rest is a blurry mess
I'm sure whatever spell you cast
Has worked out like you planned
You've once again foiled my plans
And left me a vulnerable man

Day 296: echo

I'm calling out
Waiting for my echos to
Let me know I'm not alone
And I'm searching gazes
Looking for some recognition to
Let me know I'm someone's son
And I'm holding on
To this pebble in my pocket
To let me know which way is up
Since my feet can't find the ground
Still waiting for that echoed sound
To let me know someone's around