Day 323: Breathe

I thought i put this up a long time ago.... Glad to finally have it up.

BREATHE

I dance to the rhythm of the cyclone spinning in my lungs
Clean air feeds my soul’s fire like the burning of a thousand suns
For finally I can breathe unadulterated air
For years smoke smeared these lungs I cannot spare
Every hour on the hour I would need another hit
Or the nicotine queen would throw another fit
Pumping hormones in my blood stream that would set my skin on fire
My train of thought would break down like it’d gotten a flat tire
My tongue would scream for the taste of leaves that held the precious key
That the lighter would unlock, as smoke poured in, I would inhale.
But I wouldn’t breathe

Cause it’s not really breathing when each breath makes you numb
And it’s not really breath you can’t catch when you run
It’s the tar and the scars from the years of abuse
For your lungs every puff is a tightening of the noose
That’s slowly stealing every feeling that makes a life worth living
So I’m peeling, floor to ceiling, every inch of my old skin since
Metamorphosis can’t happen without irreversible change
A butterfly can’t spread its wings without breaking from its cage
And the rage from withdrawal was my struggle with the pain
The depression was the bubble that burst causing the rain
That came from these clouds I call my eyes every night
Sanity slipping from my grasp took all I had to hold it tight
And as the world around me was splitting at the seams
I’d come back to my senses when I learned
I could breathe

As each day passed away soon the pain began to fade
Felt like my life was given back to me just inches from the grave
And laid out at my feet was the demon of addiction
Too weak to control me but strong enough to cause friction
Cause the temptation is still there to drown out all my pain
With the smoke from tobacco leaves sitting in a flame
But I won’t be tricked again; I won’t be made a slave
Because the more I ignore the hunger, the faster it fades away
So I strap on running shoes and I race to greet the day now that
Clean air continually fills my lungs I cannot stay in place
I run the race from the beginning until the very end
Cause I’m free from my addiction and
I
Can
Breathe
Again.